Insight

I have been up working on my classes tonight and during my work I was pondering and reflecting, I do my thinking at night, and usually while I'm writing.  After completing a paper for one of my classes, I started thinking about my bleed, and I thought about where I would be today if the bleed had not happened?  I thought about how quickly I could think and write, prior to the bleed.  I also thought about a conversation I had with someone yesterday, and how difficult it was for me to keep track of the multiple topics we were discussing together.  It was like I could not organize the topics of conversation in my brain, and when we would switch subjects I had difficulty recalling what we were talking about prior and what I had said about that subject.  I was also aware that the person I was having the conversation with was also aware of my struggle.  What a frustrating conversation!  However, there are moments of time when I surprise myself, and I'm able to bang out some insightful information in my papers and I wonder where did that come from?  Then there is tonight when I have time to stop and think and realize that right now writing is easier for me because I'm allowed more "think time" verses when I'm in a conversation I'm required to think and respond more rapidly.  Finally, I'm starting to put my current brain all together!